is it in the air? the water? your butt?

i'm pissed.  i'm about to go HAM on you all so get ready or get out.  you're warned.

no one is "listening" to anything anyone is saying (not just to me but to my sisters and brothers around here).  there are so many people missing the point in the lit forum threads right now i think folks need to get a CT-scan to make sure their brain is still up in their head.  what the hell is going on.

i say something, someone takes it totally sideways and looks for things i'm not saying.  same with my other homies over there.  too much butthurt, too much projection, too much defense, and all from people who are simply not ready for the bright lights.

look, motherfuckers -- shut up for a second and "listen" to the words that are being said.  stop looking for a way to be offended by it.  stop being mad because the "wrong words" are being used.  good LORD!  i can't help what stupid-ass baggage you have and frankly, it's insulting and incredibly egotistical to think a stranger should be in your head and know you.  i mean what i say and i say what i mean and you all who have been following me for more than a week OUGHT to know that by now.  i don't need fools up my crease trying to make me feel bad because i somehow donkey punched them in their fuckin' feels.

really -- can none of you be spoken to without a pat on the head and a pillow for your feet?  cup of tea?  how do i sound in your head?  are you all really missing the point when i'm trying to help you by saying what you need to hear because you've never been told?  you're not used to it so it hurts?  i will not apologize for not having patience for whiny brats.  if i'm too much of a cunt for you, fine.  you're too much of a baby for me.  it's a shame because i have things to teach you, not that you twats actually USE the advice I give or anyone else gives (that you ask for)...

it's really frustrating when i have to "be a certain way" for some people in order for them to hear my message.  some of you like my no-nonsense approach.  those are the ones who will succeed because they're ready, NOT BECAUSE THEY AGREE WITH ME.  they know i don't make it personal.  i don't know anyone here.  all i want is for people to kick ass and be awesome and i do not sugarcoat the things i say.  in critiques, i will not be a bitch to you for the sake of being a bitch, that is stupid.  anyone who has had a critique from me knows this.  i am objective and fair, i call it like i see it.  i give critiques the way i'd want to receive one.  

and i swear to Christ on the cross if one more motherfucker tells me that all new writers start somewhere/we're not perfect/i'm trying my best -- i'm going to go chainsaw on your ass.  stop with the patronizing bullshit.  i'm not an idiot.  i started out somewhere, i wrote the shit poetry; i got sick of being a shitty writer so i took pro-active steps to improve.  some of you can't be bothered.  that's on you.  take it out of my face.

aren't you ready to get out of the kiddie pool?  what can't you handle?  don't you want to be better than you are right now?  then take down your defenses and listen to the good things me and my homies tell you.  you know who we are.

you wanna know why i'm like this?  because i'm fucking passionate about what i believe in.  you could try the same.  it blows me away that there are so many people here from all stripes who say they love writing and it is what they want to do but goddamn if they can't fucking be bothered to do what it takes to take it to the next level.  you say you love writing but you know what -- you are in love with the possibility of what being published might bring.  your head isn't right.  you're doing it wrong.

if this journal doesn't apply to you, good.  if this journal bothers you, then you are who i'm talking to.  don't be such a fool and out yourself here with your pain for everyone to read.  this is a straight up vent-at-your-ass journal and nothing you say will matter.  take a second to understand what i said instead of immediately getting mad.  i'm not going to change who i am so you don't get upset.  others might; i won't.

you think i'm mean?  the world is a million times meaner.  deal with it.